Forgive me for being Blind to my Sins

It's long time since I wrote something. I was not able to, don't know why. I was keeping myself away from God a bit I think. I could feel it in my every cell that I need to pray hard and not allow myself to slip from the presence of God like before and fall down somewhere. But still I was not able to and started to slip away slowly. And today it proved, as I did something I firmly decided that I will never do in my life. Please don't ask me what it is. IU cannot share it with anyone. But I have done it and cannot change it anymore. Why did it happen again in my life. Why can't I keep off from it. Lord I don't know what to tell you. I feel ashamed to even say sorry. But I trust in you that you will forgive me because I am really ashamed and really upset with myself. Appacha I am so sorry from the depth of my heart I say, "I am sorry, please forgive me." You have promised that whoever repents with a heavy and sorrowful heart, to them you will forgive, so please have mercy and forgive me. Please speak to me again and reveal the secrets of thy word to me so that I can share it with others.

My dear Father, please forgive me for being blind towards my sins. I am terribly sorry for grieving the Holy Spirit. Please don't cry cause I sinned and made you upset. I am so so so sorry. Appacha I love you. You too love me na. Please don't hate me. I know you can't. Please help me not to yield into temptation. Help me to stand firm to my decisions of not sinning. Give me the strength to give up on all that will come in the way of our loving relationship. Please love me father as you did before. Please hug me and hold me close to your heart. I long for your touch. Please let me lie on your lap and please run your hand through my hair. Let me feel you Lord. Please kiss me and say that you have forgiven me. I am your daughter and I want to be a good and faithful daughter to you. I am so happy that I could tell it out to you today. Thank you for this time and thank you for this love and for this privilege to come to you and tell you anything and everything on my mind and heart. I am so proud to have a father like you. Thank you for all. I Love You!